Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Surgery?

March
Surgery?

I've learned that when I'm really scared, I'm kind of like a turtle.  I just want to keep to myself and I pull everything in.

After running the 10 mile run in March, I felt like things were "not right." I went to see my regular doctor and she said my pelvic organs were prolapsed.  But she said I could continue running.  I wanted to see what my ob/gyn had to say but couldn't get an appointment for five weeks!  So, for five weeks, every time I was scheduled to do a run, I was afraid to run and afraid not to run.  Not fun.

My ob/gyn confirmed that I was prolapsed and said I was a good candidate for a hysterectomy and repair to the the organs "down there."  However, she also said that I didn't have to have surgery.  It was just to relieve the symptoms.  And, she stated that I could run and confirmed that if I felt discomfort at mile 7, nothing would fall out before mile 13.1.  Ha!

It's strange.  I love the running.  I love pushing myself.  However, the worrying that I should not be running at age 60 is mentally challenging, to say the least.  Surgery seems like no big deal to the doctors.  It is a big deal to me.  I would rather not have surgery.

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

10 Mile Run - Now I AM in Trouble with Coach!

March 15, 2014
10 Mile Run - Now I'm in Trouble with Coach!

So the question is this:  Why do I work with a coach if I'm not going to do what he says?!  I know how important it is to be coachable.  Why then, when my coach said to run for 1 hour and 45 minutes, did I run 2 hours and 50 minutes?

Why did I run so long?  I'm starting to feel no confidence about my ability to finish the half marathon in four weeks.  FOUR WEEKS!  I know that a lot of people train to 10 miles before doing a half.  I figured if I could do 10 miles, then I'd have tons of confidence going into the half marathon.  And, I really thought I could do it.  I was wrong.

The first six miles were fun (which was nice because that's a 10K).  Miles 7 and 8 were not fun.  Miles 9 and 10 were ridiculously painful.  My calves were screaming and I couldn't focus.  I could hear my Garmin watch alarming that my cadence was too low, I'd speed up for 10 seconds and then be slow again.  While running, I kept thinking, "Is this pain ok?"  I had just read an article by a person who said they had made peace with pain.  Was this the pain that I was supposed to become friends with - or was this pain that I should pay attention to and stop running?  How do you tell?

My coach is so nice.  However, I knew that he was not happy when he wrote, "Sue!!!!" with four explanation marks at the beginning of his email.  I felt so guilty!  And felt even more guilty when I read an article called, Eight Reasons Your Coach Hates You.  Doing extra mileage / workouts was number six! 

I did the next week's training exactly as written and did a LOT of thinking about why I did the 10 miles.  The reason what that I didn't have enough confidence in my training plan.  Everything that I had read said to increase the mileage by 10% each week.  We weren't doing that.  I didn't have the foggiest idea what we were doing.  It all just seemed chaotic to me.  So . . . I asked my coach if we could talk and I asked him to help me learn his training methodology.  He was terrific and took the time to share his thinking with me.  He said



Monday, March 17, 2014

First Anniversay - First (Indoor) Triathlon


March 9, 2014
First Triathlon Anniversary

Happy anniversary to me!  One year ago today I did my first (indoor) triathlon.  While I don't want to pat myself on the back, what a long way I've come.  I say often, "Who would have thought?"  And I mean that.  Who would have thought that a person who could not walk more than 20 feet without having to stop for breath, who could not put on her socks or tie her shoes, who needed support to get up from a chair would have spent the last year doing triathlons?  To this day, I'm not sure what inspired me to do that first triathlon a year ago.  But, I'm so glad I did.

I don't think I have ever been so nervous before a race!  My biggest fear was that after all the work I've put in during the off season, my times would be slower. 

During the race, I ran into the college girl who timed my run at the same race last year.  I told her that last year's tri changed my life.  I also shared that I had told lots of people all year long about the great college kids who cheered for me every time I came around the track.  And once again, she was so supportive.  People can be so nice.  She is a junior so maybe I'll see her at next year's race.

Here's my times.   I did a personal record in all three events.  I had no idea how fast I would run after doing all the long, slow runs in the off season.  When I looked at my watch, I could not believe it.  I was running miles in the 11:00's.  What!!  In the 11:00's?!!  Last year I was barely under a 18:00 minute mile.  So if, like me, you are a doubting Thomas about the benefits of slow long runs and hill climbs during the off season, doubt no more.  It works!

 
 SWIM
 BIKE
 RUN PACE
 This Year
 13:01.75
 26.09.78
53.17.0   (pace 11.53)
 Last Year
13:51.3
 28:03.4
35.40.9   (pace 17.46) 
Difference
0:50
1:53
17:36

Maybe even more than the improved times, was my improved confidence in the run.  The running that I've done over the past six months have taught me so much about running and about my body.  I now know how it feels when my heart is in zone 2 and zone 3.  I really don't even need to look at my heart monitor any more.  I was so confident coming into this run.  First, I knew that I could make it.  Second, I need what form I needed to use.  Third, I knew what pace I wanted to run.  Well, kind of.  I knew I wanted to go faster than 13:00.  I had no idea that my body would feel like I was going 13:00, but I'd actually be going faster than 12:00.
 
What an incredibly satisfying day!

 

 



Sunday, March 2, 2014

8 Mile Run - Am I in Trouble, Coach?

March 2, 2014
8 Mile Run - Am I in Trouble, Coach?

Today, I ran 8 miles!    Woohoo!  Hooray!  Yippee! 

A few weeks ago, my "coach monster" (see previous post) decided to assign workouts by minutes instead of miles.  I had been getting frustrated because at my pace, the 4-mile runs during the week were taking so long and were interfering with life.  So, wise man that he is, my coach monster decided to assign workouts in minutes, rather than miles.  Today, I was supposed to run for 90 minutes.  I ran for 135 minutes.  Am I in trouble?    My coach monster will be nice about it, but I'm sure that my next set of workouts will say "NO LONGER" in bold font!  And I think to myself, why am I working with a coach if I'm just going to ignore what he says.  Silly me.

I know the best athletes are coachable.  They trust their coaches follow their direction.  I do trust my coach.  My logical side knows that he'll get me where I want to be - and without injury.  But sometimes, it's just so hard to run slower than feels natural (zone 2) or shorter distances than I want to run.  Other times, I want to say, "You want me to run how far!  Are you crazy!"  And sometimes, I get a little stressed when I'm running 6 miles and the mini-marathon that I want to do is only seven weeks away.  It's hard to be coach-able!

So why did I run so long?  Today was a distance run and I was getting bored with the flat route that I normally run near my home so I decided to drive 45 minutes the town where I used to live and where I did my first walk on my first day of Couch to 5K.

My husband went with me so he could visit our former hometown too.  He dropped me off at the interstate and I ran toward town.  After running about a mile along a road, I ran on a "People Trail" that took me into a woods.  After running about another mile, I came to a barricade.  Now what?  Luckily, a couple was walking toward me on the other side of the barricade and I asked if I could get through.  "Sure," they said.  They lied - kind of.  Technically, you could get through, but the cement trail was washed out by a nearby river and I ended up walking for 10 minutes in 4 inches of mud that threatened to suck off my shoes!  And . . . there were at least a half dozen (no exaggeration) BIG fallen trees that I had to climb over.  Other people had climbed over them too and they were covered with mud.  I laughed out loud as I imagined what I looked like - a 60-year-old woman plodding through the mud in the middle of the woods and climbing over trees.  When I finally emerged from the woods, I had at least 10 pounds of mud on each foot.  What a hoot!  I love adventures!

Once out of the woods, I was a couple of miles from my old house so I decided to run there - about 6 1/2 miles total.  How cool to think I could run from the interstate to my old house!  That was a LONG way.  As I started down my street, I was filled with all kids of emotions.  I remembered how I couldn't walk to the corner without stopping and how I used to hold my husband's arm when we walked to take some of the load off my feet.  I thought about how far I had come and how many blessings in my life enabled me to get where I was.  So blessed.

After retracing the steps that I took to the corner on my first Couch-to-5K walk, I decided to re-trace my first 5K walk too.  So next, I ran to the mall which was 1 1/2 miles from our house.   That meant my total miles was 8.  8 is a lot closer to 13.1 than 6.  I was sore (shins, metatarsals, hips, rear end) but it was a "good sore." 

Wow.  Who would have thought that I could run all over my town - Interstate, downtown, through the woods, to my old house, and to the mall.  Amazing.  Need to go somewhere?  No problem.  I'll just run there!  What a sense of freedom!

Triathlon for the Every Woman -- An Inspiring Book

March 2, 2014
Triathlon for the Every Woman
Author:  Meredith Atwood

I started listening to Triathlon for the Every Woman while running distance.  It is SO good.  I consider this book a must-read for every woman who has ever doubted that she can accomplish an endurance race.  The author calls herself Run-Bike-Mom (RBM) and has given affectionate names to the characters in her life.  My favorite is Coach Monster (her coach).  RBM is so human - just like me (and you) as she struggles to balance work, parenting and training.  And her humor has left me literally laughing out loud on several long runs.  In addition, RBM provides great advice for triathletes including tips from Coach Monster as appropriate.  Although I have never met her and probably never will, I feel great affection for her.

Swim-Bike-Mom's website is also worth exploring.  I especially like the posters which can be downloaded (with proper citation) for free.  Here's a couple:
 
I especially like this poster. 
My poster would say:

I am definitely NOT a superhero, supermodel or superstar.  But I am a wife, mother, grandmother and friend who at age 60, went super far.  With each mile, I learned exactly how blessed I am.

I am Sue.
I am Swim Bike Run Grandma.
I am a Triathlete.







Other posters especially I like:


5K with Heart - Back in the Saddle! - Feb 8 2014

February 8, 2014
5K Run for Love and Cupcakes

So . . . I decided to do a 5K to further test the old ticker.  My goal for this race was similar to my first 5K - to see if I could finish. with all my body parts functioning.  I ran slow and steady, trying not to over-tax my heart.  And I did finish!  Yippee!     


It was a fun race - about 200 people and really cool finisher medals.  I think it's funny that I get so excited by my finisher medals, but hey, at age 60 when so many people are at home on the couch having their morning coffee, I think just starting the race is an accomplishment and finishing should be celebrated.  I am proud of my finisher medals.

This was a COLD race - 8 degrees and snowing!  My husband didn't want me to race.  He is still nervous about my heart.  I decided to do it anyway and as always, my wonderful husband was supportive.  My biggest question was about what to wear.  I thought about wearing a big bulky sweatshirt but then opted to wear layers:  turtle neck / warm-up jacket / long sleeved t-shirt / ear muffs.  At the start, a woman who I have never met, suddenly wrapped both arms around me and said, "I'm so cold!"  Ha.  I love triathletes.  While chilly at the start, I was soon toastie and thankful that I didn't wear the bulky sweatshirt.

The Midwest was covered in about a foot of snow and most of the roads we ran were ice covered in many places.  The event organizer recommended that we be careful and suggested that we not run a personal best.  The worst part of the race running for a mile in snow-covered grass.  I guess the city thought they had plowed the sidewalk for us, but the plow got off course and wasn't actually on the sidewalk!  The only place you could easily run was in the plow's tire treads so that's where I ran.  I felt like a hire-wire runner, as I carefully placed one foot in front of the other.  I twisted my ankle a couple of times on the uneven ground, but nothing big.  As we came across the finish line, they gave us BIG medals and a cupcake (which I gave to my husband).  Woohoo, I finished!


Time:  43:11
Pace:  13.57

Those things on the top of my head are my reading glasses.  Yes, I ran the entire race with my reading glasses on the top of my head.  Laughing out loud!!

I've decided to just "go for it" in the future rather than hold back.  If my atrial flutter was not just a fluke, then we'll know.  And . . . since the cardiologist said that atrial flutter isn't life threatening and I have his permission to race, I don't see any reason why I should hold back.  I'm being constrained by my fears rather than my ability.  I still haven't done SPIN class or hill-intervals, but will do those in the next week.

Oh no! Atrial flutter -- Dec 31 2013

February 1, 2014

Where to begin . . .

On December 30th, I did a "sit down" with my coach.  I was becoming so confused about what we were doing.  It just seemed like a jumble of different types of workouts with no rhyme or reason.  Part of me told myself to just do what my coach (who I trust) said to do.  Be coachable.  But another part of me knew that if I understood the overall plan and the different types of workouts, I would be more eager to do them and put more into them.  So I asked my coach if  we could just talk instead of working out.  He agreed.  And I learned that there are different kinds of runs that are done for different purposes:  1) distance runs, 2) interval runs, and 3) tempo runs. We also discussed my crazy heart that has a hard time staying in zone 2 (120-130 for me).

So . . . on December 31st, I did a run that made me proud.  I ran 3 miles of intervals by running up the 12 hills in our neighborhood.  On the uphills, my heart would go into the 140's and then I'd walk until it went below 120.  Once below 120, I'd do an easy run keeping it below 130 until the next run.  What was so cool is that I was controlling my heart rate.  Pretty cool.  I came home completely pleased with running and with life in general.  I had conquered the heart.

Once home, I was sitting at my desk writing to my coach about conquering my heart rate, when all of a sudden, for no apparent reason, my heart started beating wildly.  Irregular and fast.  I quickly put my heart monitor back on and found that my heart rate was steady at 150 when I was just sitting there with a LOT of irregular heart beats.  So much for conquering the heart.  All I could think of was the RUN FROM HELL a few weeks earlier and I figured I should get this checked out.  I didn't have pain and I wasn't scared.  I just wanted someone to do an EKG so I could know what was going on.  Since I didn't think I was having a heart attack, my husband and I went to our doctors' walk-in clinic.

The walk-in-clinic was a hoot.  During my run, I had set the heart rate alarm to go off at 130 so I would stay in zone 2.  I still had the heart rate monitor on in the clinic and every few seconds it alarmed.  So there I was at the check-in desk with alarms going off every 10 seconds!  They quickly took me back to an examination room.  I learned that heart patients usually go to the emergency room rather than the walk-in clinic.  They freaked.  The next thing I knew, they brought in oxygen and a defibrillator.  They then decided I should go to the emergency room.  Since it was nearby, my husband just drove me there.  I refused to be pushed in a wheelchair.  After all, I am a triathlete!

In the emergency room, the techs hooked me up to an EKG machine and blood pressure cuff.  My heart rate was still around 150 with irregular beats.  I saw the doctor who asked a bunch of questions.  I remember telling her that if I couldn't run any more, I would be "heartbroken."  Then, the doctor was called away to address some trauma patients.  She was gone for about 1 1/2 hours and in that time, my heart rate came down by itself.  The doctor decided to do some tests and I learned that the RUN FROM HELL was not a heart attack (phew), my electrolytes were good, my thyroid was fine, my heart was the right size.  The only thing the doc noticed was that my mouth looked dehydrated so they pumped some fluids into me and sent me home with instructions to see my regular doctor.  One really cool thing:  The medical staff kept referring to me as an "athlete" when describing me to each other!  Wow, that was cool to hear.

 So, my regular doctor said I had a atrial flutter and referred me to a cardiologist - electrophysiologist.  I LOVED this doctor.  The first thing he said to me was, "I don't think we are going to do anything."  Woohoo!!!!  He guessed that my a-flutter was just  fluke.  He said if it happens again, it is not an emergency.  I am not going to fall over dead.  I should just sit down and rest and if it keeps up for 6-8 hours, I should see him.  But, to be safe, he wanted me to wear a heart monitor for 24 hours and do a stress echocardiogram.

The echocardiogram was fun.  By the time I could get in, I hadn't run for a couple of weeks and it felt SO good to run.  The treadmill keep going faster and inclining.  I asked at the beginning when I should stop and was told "whenever you feel like stopping."  At 10 minutes, my heart rate was 160.  I was winded but not as bad as I am when I finish a race.  The tech told me that I was at 10 minutes, and I just got the impression that she thought I should stop.  Since my heart was at 160, I figured they had the data they needed so I stopped.  Don't get me wrong - I was winded.  But I wasn't at that place I get toward the end of a race where my body says STOP, STOP, STOP - and my brain tells my legs KEEP GOING.  I write this because later the lab cardiologist scolded me for not running until I couldn't take another step.

When they were doing the second echocardiogram with my run beating 160, I had the same pain that I got during the RUN FROM HELL.  I was SO pleased that this happened so we could determine what it was.  The lab's cardiologist later told me that he saw nothing in my heart that would have been responsible for that pain.  Woohoo!

My own cardiologist's office called a few days ago to say that I had "passed" my tests and that I could start exercising again.  Woohoo!

But . . . I have been re-engaging in exercise gingerly. 

I did a very slow 3 mile run at the YMCA last week as my first test.  So far so good.  I swam a slow mile last night and ran another slow 3 miles this morning.  I'm hoping to bike tomorrow.  Once I've done this for a couple of weeks, I'll get back in touch with my coach and start seriously training again.